Tuesday, August 16, 2005

About my future

I got the ball rolling tonight. I told Jason about my intent to leave Confetti. Tomorrow I will tell Liz. I like the people. Liz and Jason have been good to me. I really like working with Amanda and Krystal. They are probably the reason why I have toughed it out this long. Krystal, by the way, has informed us that she is pregnant. I'm sure she will be a great mommy.

Anyway, I will tell Liz about my decision to move on tomorrow. I don't intend to split right away. I think I can hang in there until December. That will give us the chance to hire somebody and train him or her. Of course, whomever gets hired will definitely not be up to par with what I offer. I think both Amanda and Krystal together can fill in. The new hire will be extra help for them.

Letting Jason know my intent has given me peace. I don't have the anxiety I have been feeling lately. In fact, after this entry, I will go to bed for a peaceful night's rest.

What will I do? I don't know. Anything. I would, however, very much like to get my old life back with the Masons and towards becoming a leader of the community in Mission. I also want to go back to school.

Alma needs to borrow money to pay for her summer classes. Then Head Start will reimburse her. I asked Jason tonight. This was an excellent opportunity to test the waters. It seems like I will have to get my ass back into school on my own. I think I will need a couple thousand. Jason balked at my request for $700. I knew in the back of my mind that I was being used. I think that's why I feel at peace.

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