Thursday, June 22, 2006

Good opportunity for change

I got wind of a good opportunity today. I'm going to follow up tomorrow to see what my prospects are. If the opportunity is good, then I will have to do something that I don't like doing. I'd end up jumping ship from one job to another with a better offer. I have tried loyalty to my employers in the past and have wound up used and broke. So dumping one job for another goes against my nature. Usually, I'll stick to a job until it is no longer fulfilling, quit, wander around, and find another job. It is difficult to go against my nature by finding another job while employed; but this year has been about change for me.
I'm learning some things about my current job that would mean that I will have wasted my trip north. I'd end up in the RGV again without having met my objective. As much as I want to be loyal and be a part of the group, I'm seeing that I won't get where I want to go. Ironically, the job would be very fulfilling if I were to ignore my objectives. I can't afford to set aside my personal goals for the sake of my job any longer. I see a lot of people who have deferred their own personal goals who look back and wonder where the time went. I don't want to be one of those people who gave their lives to their jobs with nothing to show for it. It's probably arrogant for me to expect an employer to be as loyal to me as I am to them.
All this is a bit premature. I don't know for certain if the opportunity is such a big step forward yet. I do like my current job. I like the people, I like the mission. But I think I've been screwed over enough that this trip is turning out to be unprofitable. I would let it slide if I even stood of chance of breaking even. But, it's unlikely. It sounds cliché, but it's nothing personal, it's just business.
For example, the volunteering was supposed to be one week during the training. They volunteered me two weeks instead. So I won't get paid for that time. I applied for the job in the RGV so that I could get the traveling stipend. Since I was hired here, I did not get the stipend. I thought the season would go until October. It turns out that it will end in September. I am doubtful that I'll get the stipend to go back to the RGV. All in all, my profit keeps slipping away. I can't afford that and the current losses.

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